Crossroads

I am looking back over some of my writings tonight. Wow, it’s a journey, life is not a race. Heard that many times but it makes more sense each day I live. With age comes wisdom they say. Ok, well I feel like I keep learning. But one of my sayings is “if you are not learning, you are dying!” Well, I got lots more living to do, so I guess bring on the learning!

I know my childhood and how my mother raised me did affect me tremendously but it affected me in good ways, as well as, the bad. I feel my compassion comes from years of watching my mom live a sad lonely life. I so want to help others deal with their emotional issues. My mom never did hers. I have sought help myself when I have got to a point I couldn’t climb out of that hole on my own.

The thing about depression or any emotional issue, the person has to want to get better. You can want it for them but unless they do, nothing you try will ever make a difference for them. It’s hard to let go of control and just let another you love and care about struggle and go through hardships. But if you truly love the person and want them to have a chance of healing you have to let them or sometimes make them be on their own and live life with their choices.

I know we want to prevent another from hurting but unless we let them, then they may never gain their independence and find themselves. This is a crossroads of sorts. I think we all face many crossroads in our lives. There are main ones we come to and the decision we make is going to have lifelong consequences.

I am at one in my life now. I have felt since last summer God was calling me to go on a Spiritual journey. Like He is saying you need a reset. You need to go be in nature see that there is so much more than your corner. Spend some quality time with me and Gaia. So as I write I am pondering my next steps. I have a minor bump in the road with a back issue but I know God has a plan.

Where are you right now? Are you at a crossroads? Take some time with the Creator. It might take longer than you think and it usually does if we allow for God’s timing. His is best so wait. Trust me His way is easy and light.

These past few months I have gotten out of timing with God. I know He wants me to help others but I must use good common sense and make smart decisions about things He would have me do. I do have faith that He will provide for the needs I have when I do help others but I also must be a good Steward of what I have.

I am more sure each day that I live this life, I am living, it is one of immense blessings. I do have hard times, heart breaks, and yes doubts but at the end of the day I know my Father knows my heart and soul and He is proud I continue to strive to be everything He created me to be. In living my life this way it’s never hard, really it isn’t. I am blessed beyond measure.