Detours

Well, at my crossroads is a detour. I got news from my doctor the recent MRI I had shows I have a cyst on my spine between my L4 and L5 disc. This news wasn’t what I expected. I truly believed there would be maybe a bulging disc but nothing that could possibly require surgery.

I have to say this news hit me harder than I truly expected. I know everything will work out for me. God has always seen me through every trial I face. So at this detour I choose to be patient with myself. To take time to breath and be in the moment not trying to get to the next “thing” but just exist for now.

Let’s pick back up where we left off from my life story last. I was in 10th grade and I just had an abortion. Wow! There are a lot of emotions in that one sentence. Let’s move forward now. I try to look back and I remember how awkward that I felt at school. The cute quarterback thought it would be funny to share with some of his friends that he got me pregnant. Everywhere I went at school I felt like people were looking and talking about me. I am sure now that wasn’t the case but it definitely felt like it then.

The 10th grade was my hardest grade not only emotional but in my classes. I recall every subject but my favorite math was so hard. I was one who never had to study much. It just came to me but not this year in school. I always was studying at night and in my free time. I was a straight “A” student and I wanted to stay one.

There aren’t many more memories for me during the 10th grade other than these two main themes. High School can be so emotional for our teens. We need to remember this when we have teens. Keep your lines of communication open with them. Look for signs if they might be struggling and just be there for them. It seems like the end of the world when you are a teen girl and your reputation has been completely ruined.

I so wish my mom could have said it’s going to be okay and just hugged me. I couldn’t really even talk to her about my feelings.

Crossroads and detours. Life is about many of these. I am just so thankful God was always with me even though I didn’t know Him yet. Is there a teen girl you could mentor or just check on every now and then? Maybe this might be something you choose to do, so there are less young girls who might go it alone like I did then and help them to not have a detour they have to go through.