MEMORIES COME WHEN THEY ARE SUPPOSED TOO

About four blogs back I mentioned that I had uncovered a hidden trauma shortly after moving to Richmond Hill, Ga for my job in Savannah. I had come to a major tipping point of overload on my emotional scale.

All my life I had felt and believed I had experienced some type of sexual abuse or trauma at a very early age. So when I found myself in this terrible emotional state this is where my mind wanted to go to. What happened to me, why can’t I remember, and was my mother aware of the events.

I decided that I needed to see a professional to help me deal with everything that was going on in my life. So one of my fellow managers that I carpooled to work with had some similar life experiences and recommended her therapist to me.

Those were some of the toughest days when I had an appointment. The first few not as much but the deeper we got the more I didn’t want to go there. There were days I rescheduled my appointments. There were even days I got physically sick from dreading the raw discussions with my therapist.

Elizabeth was my therapist first name and she was a wonderful caring soul. She helped me with everything she had but still all my memories would not unlock. During this time I even had a period where I could not even hear the sound of my mothers voice. I would get extremely nauseous.

I asked mother about what I was feeling and the events I remembered. But mother never would even go there or let me tell her about my therapy. She denied knowing about any sexual events that could have happened that she would have been aware of.

You know the key memories did not come to me till some 30 years later. The day I opened the Sophia Code book in the end of summer 2020 on my front porch steps sitting in the sun I was reading the Preface and Introduction and read about Kaia sexual abuse my memories came forward.

The tears just rolled down my face and I wept like I had never cried before. I was sexually abused as an infant. Some how my body and mind had held the feelings, emotions, and pain all this time. Now, it was time to remember and allow that baby Wendy to be healed completely of this sexual abuse.

So as I have said many times before. It’s no coincidence things are coming in and lining up just like they are. I am currently leading a group of ladies through the Sophia Code book. I have realized my connection to Sophia and a big part of my Mission in this lifetime just this past week. Here we are right at this place in my journey of writing my life story. So if you are reading this blog there are no coincidences, you are here for a reason. It could be your journey is similar to mine or it could be that there is something in your life that is calling you to take a closer look and see that there is so much more God wants to reveal to you.