MY TRIP TO AUGUSTA WITH ANN

Ann and I did feel comfortable after meeting each other. I met her dad and stepmom too. It was a few weeks later that we planned our trip to Augusta to the house where her grandmother lived before her death.

I so wish now I had written down the days events when we got to the house right afterwards while it was still fresh. I still don’t know if I could have captured the feelings in words though. Now, it’s like my words can’t express how truly profound the whole experience was. We were going to look for a message from Ann’s grandmother to her but instead I experienced a truly life altering event.

When we pulled up into the drive and I saw the house numbers my head started spinning. I got lightheaded. I felt like I was going to pass out. It was the most extreme feeling of déjà vu I have ever had. We were sitting in my car. You could see through the breezeway to the back yard. There was this tree with an unusual looking limb. The limb was like the shape of an U.

When I saw it memories started flooding in. I could see actual visuals of these memories in my mind. I saw a white man dressed in a military uniform. It looked like the Civil War to me. He had hung a black male on that limb. I was so taken back. I never have been prejudice. I thought what is this I am seeing.

It was just so clear. I don’t know how to express this in human language to truly get the knowing of and profound experience through in words that you can feel what I felt that day. Even with this strange scene more visuals came through. I saw my mom’s dad and what had happened to her during her childhood. It was if all these events connected dots and explained so much.