THE PIVOTAL POINT

I wrote 2 more blogs in the fall of 2019 and didn’t write again until the following January 2020 after my experience in Augusta. During this time the young lady I am calling Ann came to live with me around the first of October. Remember I was ready to get the focus off of myself because the pain and emotions that I was dredging up in looking back at my life and writing about it were tough to deal with. Most of my time went to helping Ann and her 9 month old daughter for the next six weeks or so.

By Thanksgiving of 2019 Ann was no longer with me. Those were some of the longest and most unusual six weeks I think I have ever experienced. I actually thought it was longer. I had to go back and look at pictures that I took to verify that was really how long it was. So much happened in those six weeks. Right before she came to live with me I had the past life remembrance. While she was living at the house we made a trip to Massachusetts to try and locate the father of her baby. The trip was over a long weekend and Ann was worried something had happened to him because she had abruptly lost contact with him. This trip in of itself could be a short story with all the things that happened. But for now I will just give a summary of the time Ann was living with me. It was during this trip that I began to notice some serious emotional issues going on with Ann. During her time with me we had an appointment with Sherry Whitefield the Guardian of Synergy, the Crystal Skull. To learn more about the Crystal Skull you can go here https://www.crystal-skulls.com/pages/synergys-history-and-the-background-of-sherry-whitfield The more I got to know Ann the more I realized that she was unstable emotionally. There were many touch and go days with her. I tried to convince her to seek counseling but she had such trauma from experiences she claimed to have from the time she was living with her adopted family she would not agree to seek professional help. I was in contact with her birth father and stepmom whom she was living with at the time she came to stay with me. Ann had been adopted out at birth but had come to find her birth parents after her 18th birthday. Her stepmom had some heart issues during this time and they ask me to allow her to stay until the stepmom was more stable. I agreed to let Ann and the baby stay. The days were difficult with Ann. There were times I begin to notice personality changes in her and they would go through a rapid succession of change in a short period. I come to believe Ann was suffering from a multiple personality disorder. This was the last young lady I brought in my home to help. There had been 2 before her over the 2 years since I had lived in my new home after my divorce from my ex husband. This is where I mentioned in a previous blog that by trying to avoid dealing with my own trauma, I had inadvertently gotten involved in situations that I was not capable of handling. The situation with Ann actually turned threatening for me. Unfortunately, after one of Ann’s emotional outburst she threatened me with a knife. I knew I could no longer wait until her dad could take her back in his home. It was a difficult decision but I had to have Ann physically removed from my home by the police. It was a scary situation and I learned a very valuable lesson during this time. I could not be attempting to help others when I was not equipped myself to deal with my own past trauma. I didn’t realize it at the time but the experiences over those 5 months or so between my past life remembrance and the ordeal I went through with Ann, a change had been triggered in myself to look at my own life with a more open and truth seeking determination. This was truly a pivotal point in my awakening.