UNCOVERING AND PROCESSING TO HEAL

As my year at the Fibromyalgia and Fatigue Center came to an end in Spring of 2010, I made another change in my health journey. Dr Satish Cuddapah was transitioning to his own private practice to treat patients with Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, and other similar issues. I was no longer in need of the weekly IV's so I made the decision to end my care at the Center and began monthly visits under Dr. C's care at his new practice in Sandy Springs, Ga.

Fortunately, Dr. C did take health insurance at his new practice. There was still a substantial cost because only a portion of his office visits were covered and neither the supplements or biodentical hormones were covered only the regular prescription medications. The cost was down to about half of what it cost for my treatment at the Fibromyalgia and Fatigue Center. I did have a longer drive but things were definitely better at this next phase of my health journey.

I was more like myself before the accident with my improved health. I was getting out of the house more. I began teaching some classes at church on Sunday nights. I attended weekIy Bible study classes at the Baptist Association. I had more of a hungry to grow in my relationship with God. I was able to read and study more because my mind was clearer being off some of the previous medications. I spent more time reaching out to people who wanted to grow in their spiritual walk. Looking back now I can see where I was beginning my spiritual awakening even though the changes were gradual.

Unfortunately, my relationship with my husband wasn't really where it should have been. It was cordial and we never really got into disagreements but we weren't close like a married couple should be. We didn't really talk to each other on a deep level. I can see now we were just surface level and existing in our marriage. There was no true intimacy or closeness between us.

It was during this period when Mark's daughter went through some difficulties in her life. Her husband had some health issues and their marriage was in a strain. They ended up separated. Brittany started a new relationship and unfortunately the young man died due to an accidental overdose. This happened at her home so Family and Children Services got involved since their children were there at the time. Unfortunately, the children were removed from her care and placed in foster care. It was devastating for Brittany. She was struggling herself. I tried to see if Mark and I could care for her three children but Dr. C said there was no way I could handle this responsibility. I was better but I couldn't care for three children under the age of 7.

I did try to help Brittany get to the classes she needed to attend. I drove to Chattanooga numerous times to help her and see the children. This was such a traumatic time for everyone especially Brittany. Unfortunately, Brittany husband's mental and physical health continued to declined after their separation and he ended up taking his own life. This period was such an emotional time. Brittany was so young and had already been through so much in her life. As I was writing this particular blog a few days ago, I had to stop here at this point and leave it for a period. I saw that this was an area that I needed to take some time to process the emotions that were coming up and work through them.

It's been such a gift in my awakening journey to be able to write and share my life experiences and hopefully help others who might be experiencing similar life events. But the biggest gift has truly been to my personal healing journey because it has allowed me to go through previous life experiences and process the emotions that are still lingering. The more we can go deeper within and remove these emotions that are still stuck in our emotional body and held within our physical body then the more we heal and raise our personal frequency. My prayer is that you the reader can use what I share to help you along your personal healing journey.