FINALLY OUT OF HIBERNATION

Whew! The last two and half years have really been about isolation and healing. It was as if I was in a mental and emotional hibernation. It was a time of allowing myself to be calm in my safe space. After 50+ years of living in a constant fight or flight state my body and mind needed lots of peace and quiet to finally feel safe.

I did have short periods of interaction with others and on social media but I mostly was at home in my safe space. I was unable to really do much mental intake or interact with people on a one on one basis. I didn’t truly understand what all was going on during a lot of the time. When we live in a constant state of fight or flight our vagus nerve is on hyper mode. It truly takes time to allow all the years to finally release and let go so you eventually can feel safe.

If you have been on an awakening journey you may have experienced something similar in your life. Since 2019 I have been going through a major transformation. I began writing about my life story and in the process learned how trapped emotions make us sick. I also learned how we can heal by spending time with our memories and emotions and process them and let them go.

Now that my body has finally come to the ending of this space of release I am feeling more calm and safe. This past month emotions have made themselves known that I was allowing in my life and relationships in my past that were keeping me trapped in old patterns formed when I was much younger and as a child.

I have fully recognized things I never saw or understood in my past. I made myself small for other’s emotions and put everyone else before me. I took on responsibility of other’s happiness and not my own. No more! It is time now to break free from these unhealthy patterns.

I am ready to live my best life! I am seeing it and it is materializing right in front of me!