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BROKEN-HEARTED AND BETRAYED BUT GOD’S GRACE IS SUFFICIENT
As time got closer, Rick stopped communicating with me or anyone. He was so broken hearted. He wasn’t ready to be done with this...
Aug 4, 20223 min read


FLASHES OF MEMORIES
Today as I tap into my memories of those last months with Rick in the little rental house on Kingston Highway in Rome, Georgia, I just...
Aug 2, 20223 min read


DAD CAME BY
I have spoke of my dad not being in my life very much. But he did show up during an extremely difficult time to help me. I am truly...
Aug 1, 20222 min read


BIRD WATCHING
When I considered what I should share next about my journey, I heard “bird watching.” During those now moments back then in 1997, when I...
Jul 31, 20222 min read


THE DAY MOTHER WENT HOME TWICE
Back in April of 1997, my sister Kathy and brother Jimmy shared a house together with their families in Silver Creek not far from my...
Jul 30, 20222 min read


25 YEARS TODAY
On July 29, 1997 James Ricky Holderfield took his last breathe in the body known as Rick or as some lovingly called him “Yank.” Rick...
Jul 29, 20224 min read


UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
I was thinking maybe it would be awesome to share some good memories about Rick and our life together since I have shared so much of the...
Jul 27, 20224 min read


LIFE WAS NEVER THE SAME
It’s really difficult to try and recall the time after the hospital stay and his diagnosis. Rick was never the same. He barely spoke...
Jul 26, 20223 min read


IF CANCER, THEN WHAT
Now it began all the testing to see what kind of cancer Rick had, had it spread other places, and was this spot on his lung cancer? This...
Jul 25, 20222 min read


6 DAYS TILL ITS BEEN 25 YEARS
Please don’t be concerned or worry for me. I am not depressed. I am actually the opposite. I have extreme joy and happiness in my...
Jul 23, 20221 min read


THE BEGINNING OF THE END
Little did I know I was at the ending of one major part of my life. I call it now the first third of my life. I got back into the...
Jul 23, 20223 min read


BACK IN ROME AND HANGING ON BY A THREAD
We put our things in storage while we looked for a place to live after we moved back to Rome, Ga. We were blessed to have good friends...
Jul 22, 20221 min read


I BELIEVE I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN
It has been over six weeks since I have written any blogs. I actually barely slept any in the month of June. I got maybe 2 hours a...
Jul 14, 20222 min read


THE MOVE TO NASHVILLE
I know I have shared the reoccurring theme of creating chaos in my life when things were going good. Well you might know that’s what...
May 27, 20223 min read


LOOKING BACK AND LOOKING FORWARD
After my personal leave helping mother recover from her stroke, I returned to work in the Kennesaw office with BellSouth. I was there at...
May 11, 20222 min read


Mourning the Mother Wound (parental wounding), LET THERE BE LIGHT!
Mourning the Mother Would
May 2, 20223 min read


HEADING BACK NORTH TOWARD HOME
Well I was led to go back to my personal life stories today. After spending two years as an Assistant Manager in Customer Service with...
May 1, 20223 min read


MY FIRST NUMBER “27”
I take you back now to the fall of 1993. It’s in the middle of the night and I can’t sleep. Rick is in the bed sleeping peacefully. I...
Mar 17, 20223 min read


LOST LOVE ONES
So much was happening in my life at this current period in Savannah/Richmond Hill during the fall of 1993 to bring me to know that I had...
Mar 17, 20223 min read


THE WEDDING
I remember it just like it was yesterday! I was so excited and so were the boys. In the elevator and the car we were singing the song...
Mar 3, 20221 min read
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